Maggie took me to Victoria's Secrete to get my boobs measured.  We've been arguing because she said that my 36 D bras are too small.  Anyway, the verdict is that I am a 34 DD according to the girl who measured my boobies.  I would love to go back and try on some more bras just to make sure, but Maggie was being really impaitent.

I hate the thought of being a DD, it makes me feel fat.  Although it's probably my birth control that makes me a DD and not a D.  bpth.  Anyway, I know that's not something to complain about.

I turned in my scholarship to school and I'm hoping that they send me a check.  I'm worried that they will take away some of my grants even though they said they wouldn't.  We'll see what happens.  I was hoping to have some money left over to pay for my summer school class.

Speaking of classes that I need, I'm worried that there are going to be tons of class conflictions for the spring semester.  I really really really need about 3 classes to graduate that I know are going to most likely be scheduled at the same times.  And the department is going to be a bitch about it. 

Other than school, I got laid off from my catering job (the whole company folded). And my summer job ended with much more money taken out in taxes than I thought (hopefully I'll get most of it back...it was about $1,500).  Paul and I spent a lot more money in Canada than I wanted to, but not by much.  I haven't started job searching yet, but because I got screwed over for school this semester, I have a lot of free time to work...if I can find something in this crappy economy.  I really need a second internship before I graduate so that I can get my professional engineering lisence sooner.  Paul is talking about leaving the country for graduate school and I want to get my professional engineering lisence before that (which takes 4 years of work, or one year of internships and 3 years of work under a professional engineer).  It will be perfect if I can get it in three years, because 3 years after we're married, I can get EU citizenship though Paul and that will make it easier to get a job if we move to Europe because EU citizens get priority (Paul's considering Sweden or the Netherlands or something...I don't really care as long as I can find a job).

*sigh*  and I'm taking the Fundamentals of Engineering Exam earlier than most people at UIC because I want to get it out of the way. You only need a 50% to pass, and I bought a $50 review manual (that's 400 pages or so).  I think I should be able to pass it, I just have to make sure that I study.

pfft.  I feel like life is really stressful right now, but still managable.  I have this constantly growing To Do list that I keep putting off and I feel like as soon as that's accomplished and I have a job, everything will be easy. 

Paul and I might go to Ikea next week to buy bookcases, filing cabinets, and organizing materials that we can't afford.  I compleatly paid off my credit card and there's almost $1,000 on it again!  And every time I put money in our wedding account, we have to make a payment for something and I constantly feel behind.  I honestly keep thinking that everything would be alright if we didn't have this stupid wedding to pay for.  I told Paul that we should have just done a little wedding this summer...but it will be nice.  I'm just trying to save on everything...except I already splurged on a really awesome photography package.  My dad's trying to talk me into hiring a videographer and I was like, "seriously, you can't just video tape it yourself???". Yeah, a tape would be cool to look back on and I've heard that it's a cool thing to have, but I'm not going to spend money on it when everyone and their mom owns a video camera.

Did I already mention that finding a wedding dress has been HORRIBLE!?!?  Actually, finding the dress might not be that bad if I had more people to help me look for one.  I think I will have to resort to going by myself.  People are only ever available on Sundays and almost every bridal salon is closed on Sundays.  Plus, I'm going to have to find a job for fridays and saturdays, so I'll just have to go on Monday or Wednesday afternoons.  I wish I had more girl friends at school....too bad the program is 95% male...Seriously, when kids come in after my class is finished, I'm stunned when there are more than 3 girls sitting in the room.

Anyway, I'm done ranting. I know my life isn't that horrible, but money is so tight.  I hate getting married...or the financial side of it....

I was in California for Tom and Lindsey's wedding last weekend. It was beautiful.  The weather was beautiful and California was beautiful and the wedding was beautiful.  Here is a taste:

Sorry about the not so good picture.  I got really bad pictures because Lindsey's mom stood directly in front of everyone the whole time (I wasn't getting the best impression from that woman).

Anyhow, the weather was nice and warm and consistant.  We went wine tasting and it was pretty and hilly everywhere.  The whole time I was thinking, "My wedding isn't going to be this beautiful...Paul gets married last, we have to have the most beautiful wedding!" 

This week I am going to visit Pamela in Minneapolis!  I have never been to Minneapolis, but I have been to the Mall of Americal...which I think is in the Twin Cities...which includes Minneapolis I think.  Whatever...let's just say I've never been so I can be more excited.  Anyway, I'm kind of scared because I've never driven that far by myself before, but all shall be well and we will do fun Minnesota-like things.

Sunday I leave for Springfield for this week long training thing that I have to do for my internship.  I'm not looking forward to it because it's in Springfield and it's for a whole week.  And we have the training sessions in a conference room in the hotel we're staying in.  I'm going to have cabin fevor, but I don't want to spend a lot of money going out while I'm there.  Then the day I get back, Paul leaves on a campout. Then work officially starts and I don't lave a life for three months.  I'm going to be working for the EPA during the week and then for True Helpers on the weekends, so not a lot of freetime there...Although, probably more than I think since I don't get scheduled every weekend for TH. 

meh, that's life...and I want to try on more wedding dresses sometime soon.  I have some new styles in mind that I want to see how they will look on me.

ASCE conference pictures coming soon.

All in all it was a long and eventfull weekend.  The nights were filled with drinking and socializing and the days were filled with events and (miraculously) no hangovers (for me at least).  I think I got 10 hours of sleep all Thursday - Sunday.

Details and pictures later.  We didn't win anything except 1st place for bridge asthetics (or however it's spelled).

update on my life:

I did start a website about my lack of high fructose corn syrup in which I wrote three entries and then didn't write anymore.  And I accidentally failed my Lenten promise when my period started at the beginning of this week and I bought fudgesickles and mint ice cream that ended up having HFCS in it.  Also, I made beef filled chili for dinner on Friday and damned both Paul and I to a fiery eternity in hell.  oops.

Paul and I went to Barns and Nobles today and I bought a couple of books about green homes.  It's really awesome.  I have decided the following:  Paul and I get married next summer; after that summer I get a full time job while taking a couple of grad school classes a semester (a job that will hopefully help pay for my classes) this way I will get money and also be done with grad school in two to three years.  By the summer of 2011 hopefully I will have saved enough money to purchase a plot of land on which Paul and I can build our home (not sure where we want to move yet.  Paul wants varied geographical landscape and running water.  I want snow...and not to be in hick country where people might be very conservative).  Anyway, by summer of 2012 we want to have a baby and hopefully I will have enough experience in my job that I won't be fired for being pregnant.  And hopefully I will be able to work from home.  There's really no timeline for our dream home being built, but we would like to be out of the city before our oldest kid reaches 1st grade.

I know planning life like this usually doesn't work, but it's worked for me to far so I'm going to keep doing it.  It would be harder to plan life this way if I didn't keep changing things. 

Anyway, that's the story.  I have to register for classes soon.  I will be taking transportation engineering, finite element analysis, chemistry for environmental professionals, behavior and design of metal structures, and senior design.  It should be a easy-ish semester.  But my last semester will be more of a bitch.  And I will have to take one summer school class which will suck for last minute wedding planning (the class is a four week session going from mid may to mid june).  But then I will be a Civil Engineer! Speaking of which, I have to register to take the Fundamentals of Engineering Exam next semester which would give me civil engineering certification in Illinois. Yay!  

So yeah, that's the update that no one will read and which I shouldn't really have written because I have homework that I have to finish by tomorrow (the homework that I neglected to touch over my spring break).

i have decided that i'm giving up high fructose corn syrup for Lent

it's going to be hard.  and i'm starting right after i finish this cherry pepsi that i bought for lunch today.

and i'm going out drinking tonight...which would normally be fine because neither red bull nor jeager has any HFCS in it, but it's dollar drink night and red bull disqualifies my drink from being $1.  i'll have to substitute it with Rock Star energy drink which most definately has HFCS in it.

anyway, i'm going to blog about my experience and what i eat and my weight and over all health as i omit HFCS from my diet. maybe i'll start a special blog for it....hmm....